I don't know why I'm even writing this. I'm so terribly tired. Maybe venting about it will help me sleep. In all seriousness, I haven't been sleeping well. It seems like the only time I do sleep is when it's drug induced. Mmm muscle relaxers... They may "help me" sleep, but it's not a good, refreshing slumber. For the past week, I've probably slept an average of 1 to 3 hours a night. I don't know why!! The pain hasn't been terrible. (knocking on wood) The pain levels are nothing I haven't dealt with before. I just honestly can't drift off. I wake up constantly, either hot or my head is doing its normal pain dance. My husband & I sleep with a fan on & the windows open. So it's not actually "hot" in the boudoir. The worst part is I'm keeping the Hubby up too. My tossing & turning, tosses him too! I feel so guilty. If I knew why I'm an insomniac, I wouldn't feel this much regret!!
I'm not going to turn to medications either. I'm sick of taking them & who knows if it will even help? Also, I only drink 2 cups of coffee in the morning. I don't drink anything else all day w/ caffeine. I haven't changed my diet. I've ruled everything else out. It's almost like my "sleep switch" is stuck in the off position. Something inside me is stopping me from meeting the Sandman on my pillow each night.
I just don't get it. Im TIRED darn it!! Physically my body is giving up, I'm exhausted. Literally seconds away from being clinically insane. I'm delirious. I laugh at the stupidest things... I'm just torn. I hope things turn around, or I'm going to... I don't even know. Go insane?! Lol!
Here's to some sweet dreams